The Day Before...

I always wondered what this day would feel like. Would I be anxious, nervous, sick, scared?? What I am referring to is what I would feel like the day before I gave birth to my first child. Well, that day just happens to be today. Tomorrow morning, Matthew and I will wake up (or rather, get out of bed), shower, load the car, close up the house and head to the hospital at 5 a.m. to start the process of having our first child. (Yes, my heart is racing as I write this).

So, the question... what did I do today? What did today feel like?

Last night I woke up at 11:30 and was having intense, very painful contractions. They were coming every 5-8 minutes. For someone "normal" (which no one considers me that), they would probably have rushed to the hospital. Not me. My body has been so unpredictable this entire pregnancy that I decided to just suffer and if I was still feeling them in the morning, then we'd think about it. The contractions lasted until about 5 a.m. this morning when I was finally able to get some relief. The pain would start in my back and move to the front and last about 30-60 seconds. I found one of those cherry pit things that you heat up in the microwave, put it around my back and then sat on my ab ball and just rocked back and forth. I feel asleep around 5:30 and finally got up around 8:30.

Yes, that is how my day started off.

When I woke up, I gave Matthew his "father to be" Father's Day card and gift. That was pretty fun to be able to celebrate that. Then I fried a piece of pound on the stove and had some milk with it. What followed next was my usual routine for the last month... I made the bed, swept the floors, vaccumed the carpets, fed the dogs, took a shower, and plopped myself on the end of the couch to watch T.V. and return some emails.

After church, my mom, sister, and brother's fiance', Alexia came over. We watched a movie on T.V. and then they left. (Matthew's playing golf with his dad and brother). So, in a nutshell, I haven't really done anything today any different than any other day.

Now, I am sitting here in my house, by myself, and I finally had the opportunity to reflect on what as about to happen. A minute ago, I got a little sad at how much I am going to miss my belly. I have loved being pregnant, but I know that I will love being a mother more. I must admit, I am nervous and anxious. I am not scared at all about labor. I am just anxious to see what tomorrow morning will feel like. I can't imagine! I know that tonight Matthew and I are going to eat dinner together (not sure what) and then attempt to get some sleep. (Yeah Right!)

I guess I really don't have much else to say, but that next time I write a blog, I will be a mom!! I am looking forward to writing about my experience and posting some precious pictures of our sweet little angel!